ZGram - May 24, 2003 - "My Happy Birthday Letter"

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ZGram - Where Truth is Destiny

May 24, 2003

Good Morning from the Zundelsite:

I just had a chance to talk to Ernst for about 15 minutes.  His 
physical situation has somewhat improved.  He is now in a cell with a 
window.  He has a table.  He is finally given  access to his legal 
documents.  His toothbrush is still outside on the floor in the hall, 
and there are other problems, but he says we will slowly work toward 
getting additional improvements - and he feels that my fiery Internet 
missives were the turning point to get him some relief.  He was very 
emphatic about that!  He said to continue what I am doing, using the 
Internet as my vehicle to let the world know precisely what is going 
on in Canada!

My legal team here in the US had been mulling over some strategies 
and motions  in addition to what we had already filed, one of them 
being an attempt to get Ernst back here somehow by a judge's order, 
with the understanding that he would be here "on borrowed time", so 
to speak, until some regular legal authorities decided if he should 
be deported or not.  I asked Ernst what he thought about that.  He 
said that if there is a REALISTIC chance that he could come back to 
the US on a bond or bail condition, even if it were very high and we 
had to put up our property as a guarantee, he would gladly and 
happily agree.  But he said that if he has an option only of being 
either in Canada or the US in jail, he prefers Canada - because 
"...here I can fight meaningfully" regarding the constitutional 
challenge that Doug Christie, his lead attorney, has launched. 

That's the old, combative Ernst we all know!  And his enemies ought 
to know, by now, that if they are foolish enough to throw a challenge 
his way and try to inflict more misery on this truly kind and gentle 
man, HE WILL FIGHT!

He said something else that put some salt into my eyes.  He said, 
"you are the most important person in this struggle.  You have a 
gift.  You have the Internet." 

Those are my "marching orders" - all over again, like 1996. 

At the time he asked me to defend my website "...as though you were 
defending Stalingrad." 

This I did.  And we won. 

Now it is 2003 - seven years later, and I am still on the air, albeit 
kicked off the air now and then.  There is a difference now, however. 
In 1996, few people knew that I was in San Diego and Ernst was in 
Toronto - and there was hardly any communication between us for 
months and months on end for reasons I don't want to explain.  Now we 
are married, and immeasurable closer to each other.  In many ways 
it's going to be easier, much easier, this time around!

Also, now there will be potentially vastly more, shall-we-say, 
spiritual allies.  In 1996, CSIS tried to do what they are trying to 
do now - label him a "danger" to the "multicultural fabric of Canada" 
- a charge as ridiculous then as it is now.  He had to battle the 
same enemy as he does now, but his struggle was pretty much 
restricted to Canada.  Now America is involved - and people are much 
more alert as to who the real enemy is that is threatening all of 
Western civilization - and my role will be to let them hear "Ernst's 
voice" - the voice of a kind, deep-thinking, complex man who never 
chose this fight - this fight was forced upon him.

I'll let you take a peek by letting you read part of my birthday 
letter, written on May 13 but only in my mailbox today:

[START]

My dear Ingrid:

Happy Birthday!  I will send this letter early and include a handmade 
birthday card for you - and I hope of course that it will not be 
stolen, like approximately 10 other letters to you in almost three 
months of incarceration.  Consider it pillow talk on paper, censored 
of course. (...)

I  am studying my court hearing papers each day, and get angrier each 
day by the arrogance and ruthlessness of unchecked power by these 
people hiding behind the state!  Sometimes I really do feel tempted 
to end these hearings and asked to be shipped to Germany - and as my 
revenge let the Canadians, who have treated me so shabbily in the 
last 25 years, have their civil rights and human rights be 
permanently violated and suspended by these undemocratic "national 
security" laws.  But then my old peasant sense of justice reasserts 
itself and I stride into the courtroom in handcuffs - and do battle 
one more time with the forces of evil.  What a fate!  What weird 
karma!  Odd!

Yes, Ingrid, all my worst nightmares, all the indignities in my 
dreams, all the unfairness, all the being pursued, persecuted, 
hunted, captured, stripped naked etc. all have come true - almost on 
a daily basis!  It baffles me no end.  Why?

I must make every effort to to find the underlying cosmic/karmic 
reasons in order to put an end to this seemingly endlessly repeating 
pattern.  It is not a life.  It is merely living a nightmare.  Daily!

My two-and-a-half years with you in those peaceful surroundings of 
those quiet hills and dales, the smell of the hay, the fantastic 
greens of spring and the riot and blaze of colors in the fall, our 
bench, our walks, our talks, our quiet meals, our work and gentle 
encounters - that was the life I was longing for.  My books - those 
fantastic, colorful art books, the book on the national parks, 
geography, history...the moments when we would read our respective 
bedtime readings.  I quietly had chuckles inside my head many a night 
because you would lie there, half propped up, your nose buried in 
heavy, heavy-going political/historical works of 30, 40, 50, 60 - 
even 70 years ago, and since I read them in the 50s and 60s, I knew 
how deep and difficult they were to read and comprehend!  And I, the 
guy with the fire-breathing reputation, what was I reading?  Art 
books so big they covered half the bed!  Books on Nostradamus, books 
on the borderline sciences of the CIA's remote viewing, books on 
America's national parks, gardening books, seed catalogues!  I used 
to read them downstairs in the middle of the night and look at those 
wonderful, double-spread photo pages and soak in the colors - not 
knowing that in only a short few months I would be permanently 
deprived of this, to me, almost essential-to-my-well-being sea of 
colors!  Is it not odd how this happened?

I think about it every waking moment, why this is the way it is, why 
it came about the way it did!  Was cosmic, maybe totally evil force 
and power was directed at me/us all along - without us even 
suspecting or knowing it?  Only my dreams did not lie! 

Remember how often I described to you the landscape in which those 
nightmares played out - always ice, snow, mountains of snow and 
blizzards I had to struggle through, while being hunted and pursued? 
When I was arrested, it was nice and balmy weather.  Spring was in 
the air in Tennessee.  When I landed in Buffalo a few weeks later, it 
was in a blizzard with almost zero visibility, snow banks everywhere! 
And when I was led outside, we had to climb over snow banks a yard 
high - me sliding and nearly falling in my tight handcuffs.  Then we 
slid and skidded along New York State highways, totally covered in 
snow, with stranded cars everywhere and even snow plows having 
difficulty to plow the highway clear.  Ambulances and tow trucks 
dominated the picture, and when we finally made it across to the 
Canadian side, the border station booths were almost invisible by the 
swirling snow and the piles which the snow plows had made.  It was 
scene after scene from my nightmares, which had now become a 
terrifying and soon sad reality.  After being arrested, after first 
being questioned for 8 hours and then shipped into the dark, wintry 
Canadian, almost Siberian-like landscape, I had flashback after 
flashback.  It was all deja vu.  I had lived it already in my dreams.

This, too, is very odd to most "normal" people.  What realms of 
consciousness had I advanced into during those nightmares?  What was 
or is TIME?  It would indicate that there is very little free will in 
our life, because I would never ever have freely chosen to come back, 
to live these nightmares of my own "choice", of my own "free will"! 
Never ever!

This is a very disturbing thought to me because it would indicate 
that no matter what we, in this case I, wanted and undertook to 
escape the persecution, there were powers and principalities in the 
ether/cosmos/parallel dimension that were more powerful than all my 
desires, wishes, even physical moves of relocating my domicile and 
buying property in another country thousands of kilometers away. 
This is awesome if thought to its logical conclusions!  It must be 
researched.  We cannot leave this evidence of supra-natural power 
unexamined and unexplored - or we will be constantly defeated by an 
enemy who obviously works on these, to us, completely hidden mental 
planes!

You recently were very excited about that South African seer re UFOs. 
How about those Austrian and German seers like Lorbeer who foresaw 
the attacks on New York, even to the Towers - flames, people jumping 
to their deaths, and the buildings sinking into clouds of dust? 
Imagine the chances!  What is it that these men tapped into - some of 
these prophesies were made 130, 110, 90 years ago about New York. 
(...)

There are the predictions by these seers of a terrible war coming in 
Europe, to happen within a decade or less, by powerful Russian armies 
streaming West and a trail of poisonous, mustard-colored dust 
emanating from the Middle East towards the Baltic Sea, Norway and 
Spitzbergen - a substance so poisonous no Russian soldier could get 
back across alive!  That war would take place in less time than it 
would take to eat one of those big, round German rye breads peasants 
would bake in their outdoor back ovens in the 1870s and '80s. 

And, finally, there is Edgar Cayce's "life reading" of Adolf Hitler 
for some wealthy German-American in Rhode Island, of which I was 
given a hand-typed carbon copy from a man in New York in the 1960s. 
Here is what he predicted in 1929, four years before Hitler achieved 
electoral success.  In 1929, (his movement) lost millions of votes, 
because the German community and economy stabilized, unemployment 
fell.  It looked like Hitler was a temporary phenomenon and was on 
the way down - contrary to all the (predictions) of Cayce's (of) 
becoming a leader of Germany, of enjoying incredible success and vast 
popularity.  But (Cayce) warned darkly of powers behind the press in 
foreign lands which were plotting to undermine his successful regime. 
He warned that they were fomenting a war behind the scenes, that 
Hitler could avoid the destruction of his regime if he did not embark 
"on a foreign, military, Imperialist adventure."  If he did, that 
would inevitably spell the demise and military defeat.

Which is exactly what happened!

So the question is:  Could he have avoided (defeat), had he not 
attacked Stalin's huge and better-equipped forces which would, by all 
earthly intelligence accounts, by all human logic, simply have 
overwhelmed Germany's numerically weaker-by-one-third and weaker by 
military equipment forces in a matter of weeks?  He followed a human 
logic path and was crushed by those very sinister forces lurking 
behind the scenes, especially the press.  Did he have free will?  Or 
did his enemies, like mine in Tennessee, control his destiny by 
methods and means neither he nor I understood?  All the heroism of 
millions of German soldiers, then the finest-trained army on the 
planet, all the miraculous developments in military hardware from 
jets to long-range rockets, Panzerfausts, submarines - even flying 
disks - could not defeat these mysterious forces  in the real 
physical world on the Earth plane of existence.  Their weapons were 
like toys, playthings.  Their rockets were mere firecrackers in this 
war of the spheres which operated on levels and planes we - our 
people, our fathers' heroic generation - never understood and 
therefore could not defend themselves against, much less utilize 
against our enemies. 

I am always reminded of Incas and Aztecs - brave, intelligent, strong 
people with a remarkable social and political setup in every respect 
but two: 

Their legends said that "White gods" would return - return like the 
Christ in the Jewish Bible, to bring peace and salvation.  So when 
the Spaniards came, who were white, (the Indians) were in awe of 
them, thinking they were the gods returned.  Instead of putting up 
real resistance, they were defeated in their heads!  Also, they had 
neglected research and development in the advance of weaponry and 
thus had no metal helmets, no metal armour, no guns - did, in fact, 
not know gun powder.  The returning "gods" where, in fact, not gods 
but deadly enemies.  Their defeat came through their culture myths. 

We Christians, I am afraid, are in the same boat and will suffer the 
same or a similar fate - unless we bestir ourselves to study, learn 
and know to think for ourselves rather than to accept on blind faith 
the beliefs formulated for our consumption by our sworn enemies!

That's my birthday gift, my lady!  Some thoughts - and a self-drawn 
card for you from my One-Man-Think-Tank in Thorold.  Happy Birthday 
in spite of our temporary separation!

[END]

I ask my traditionally religious friends not to be upset by Ernst's 
thoughts and ideas - he's an iconoclast.  His mind just never stops. 
I have learned to listen very carefully, and I am sure that others 
are learning to do that, for he has an original mind.  He is worth 
listening to, if only to test your own thoughts and belief systems 
against it. 

I will make it a habit to tell you at the end of each ZGram how my 
Full Page Ad Pledge Drive is doing.  After two days, it stands at 
$4,001.  That is $1 past 10% of the goal!   Don't tell me our enemies 
have millions - they don't have our spirit.  What's more, they never 
will!  I will put up a graph on the Zundelsite homepage like the 
United Fund Drive used to do - to encourage others to join.

I just finished talking to Doug Christie, his Canadian attorney, who 
is in a pessimistic mode.  He tells me that Ernst's enemies "...got 
him, and they will never let him out!"  Ha!  We will see!  We are 
going to rally our forces!  If we didn't believe we can get Ernst 
back where he belongs - why would we even try?  We are trying, and we 
are going to win.

Spread the word!

Ingrid